Day #31: New Years Resolution

Last day of 2010. I can honestly say that I'm a little sad to see you go, which is nice :) Yes, there has been heartache and pain but there have also been so many good and wonderful things that have happened. I have learned so much this past year, especially about myself. It's been a good year :)But I'm still totally looking forward to what this coming year has in store for me :) And I can't wait to ring it in with someone special :)

Ok, resolutions. Hmmmm I'm not really a New Year's resolution kind of gal but I'll try. Most of these are things that I'm continually trying to work or improve upon, but they're important enough to actually write down :)

1. Write in my journal more often- it really helps me feel better about everything (good and bad) when I write.
2. Continue to visit Marti- it's something that I need to do for me and to continue to grow.
3. Don't get below a B minus- I've never been the kind of person who cared about getting a 4.0 but good grades are important to me (and getting a C+ in Yoga was pretty pathetic lol).
4. Get rollerblads- I plan on rollerblading with Athena when the weather gets better. She needs more excercise than she gets from just walking. Oh and maybe we'll actually build that brain maze for her lol
5. Pay off CC- blech! When first getting Athena I didn't plan on her having so many health issues in her first 6 months, hence why I need to pay this off.
6. Trust and put myself first- I've spent too much time worrying about what others would like me to do or how they would like me to be. I'm me, and I'm accepting that more and more everyday; if you don't like it you can find someone else. I've already started this resolution but I'll keep at it :)
7. Just have fun and be happy! Regardless of life situations. Happiness begins with yourself.

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #30: Who are you?

Well, isn't this a loaded question?

Ok:

I'm Kesley Elizabeth Gibbs, 5'2", red hair, greenish blue eyes, lots of freckles, petite. I like to have a few close friends that I see often, I like having my boyfriend (but being single is not the worst thing in the world). I need time for myself, I can't be around the same person day in and day out (except for who I'm dating) or I start to feel like I'm being smothered. I love to dance and miss it so very very much. Some may say I have a rebellious streak in me but thats far from the truth, I'm just trying to figure out what works for me and what doesn't, what I believe in and what I don't, what/who makes me happy, aka who I am. I am very sensitive. You'll know if you've upset me. I don't like people being upset with me; I would rather someone directly confront me rather than make me tip toe around and try and figure it out (if it becomes too much of a game I'll just bail). I try to be mindful of others and not selfish but if it comes down to doing something that will make me unhappy I usually won't do it; respect yourself before you can respect others. I am like a mama bear when it comes to those I love especially Mariah. I have a tendency to flip out occasionally over silly things lol people who don't know me think I'm really pissed but really I'm just being silly or blowing off steam. I love doing silly weird things in public or in private, and I absolutely hate when the person I'm with gets all shy and embarrassed (this is me take it or leave it). I love being weird and loud and goofy with my mom sister and kels, we're pretty much crazy. I also have terrible road rage haha! I truly care about other people and their feelings and happiness, I believe everyone deserves to have someone listen to and love them unconditionally. I'm a romantic. I believe in real, true, head over heels falling in love :) but I don't believe love is easy, it takes hard work, sacrifice, selflessness, and sometimes having to look at and change parts of yourself that you may not want to admit are present. But I believe that if you are both trying and giving %100 of yourself you can stay in love and be together forever :) When I get married, thats it. No divorce. You made a commitment to this person and it is your responsibility and duty to fulfill that- you can work it out (there are exceptions). I work full time and go to school full time. I love learning, as corny as that sounds lol I love the sense of accomplishment I get from doing well in school and supporting my education by working. I am constantly learning more about myself and what makes me happy. After 2 or 3 years I feel like I'm finally coming into my own and its pretty awesome. Happiness is something that comes from within and I'm always striving to achieve that :)

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #29: A picture that can always make you smile :D

Ohhh! get me and E in front of a camera and we can take fun silly pictures for quite a while :) I love it! I remember this night really well lol we were waiting on my bed for Nick and Nate to show up and started messing around on photobooth and took tons of pictures, lip synced to silly songs, and had such a grand ole time :) I love you E!

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #28: A picture of you last year and a picture of you now. How have you changed since then?

Hmmm wow, a whole lot has happened this year and I've definitely changed. I have become more independent and self reliant. I have learned that the only predictable thing in life is that things are unpredictable. I have become so much happier with my life and with myself. I have learned it takes two complete people to have a full happy and meaningful relationship. I have learned that "you are not free, you come at a high price". I have learned that I, and only I can make myself happy. I have learned that sometimes its ok to go to bed angry; taking a few minutes or hours or days to mull things over and gain perspective can work wonders. I have learned the difference between when I'm just tired, grumpy, moody, hungry, etc and when I'm really upset. I have learned that family is the most important thing. I have learned that children always make me happier. And I have learned to trust in myself and my decisions (I will always figure it out) and that other people's opinions don't matter; you are more than entitled to them but not to tell them to me if I don't ask.

Love,
Kxoxo

Days #25, 26, and 27

Ok the post for Christmas was the same as Christmas Eve. So Merry Christmas, HoHoHo, etc.

26: A picture of something that means a lot to you


Honesty. Whether its if I ask you if my outfit is ok to if the guy I'm dating has cheated on me. I give people the benefit of the doubt- I haven't decided whether this is a weakness or a strength. But because I trust people until they prove me wrong, I expect people to be honest and decent. I strive to be the same way.

27: A picture of something you're afraid of


Well you already know I'm verrrrrry very afraid of sharks so here's another. Spiders. Like I DO NOT DO SPIDERS. I call in reinforcements to kill them, I chase them with bleach spray, I trap them under jars until someone gets home. I dont't do spiders! And I googled pics of spiders and they creeped me out too much so I picked a cartoon one.

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #24: A picture of you and a family member

Me, Mama, and Mariah. My family :) I love them so much I can't explain it. And we all have the same eyes :D

And Merry Christmas! I love the holidays because of the time I get to spend with my family, the Christmas spirit that everyone (even strangers) shares, and the opportunity to express my love and gratitude to those around me. I love you all.

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #23: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Mariah Lee LeBeau. Of course!

She's the only one that knows absolutely everything I've been through. Mostly because we've been through it together. Never judges, always listens, always gives me frank honest intelligent advice, hugs me when I cry, laughs at the most dorky stuff with me, helps me with even the littlest things, reminds me of my worth, inspires me. She may be the most important person in the world to me :) I love you Mariah.

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #22: A picture of something that you dislike

Tomatoes are disgusting. I will eat ketchup, spaghetti sauce, even Buca Di Beppo's Margherita pizza. But I WILL NOT eat tomatoes. I never have. I never will. It is NOT going to change. I promise lol



Love,
Kxoxo

Day #21: A picture of something that makes you happy :D

Love (and quotes)



I love quotes because sometimes they give me a whole new perspective on a situation, sometimes they inspire me, and sometimes they describe how I feel perfectly. And I love this quote. It gives previous loves and current ones more meaning because I think this is how falling in love feels. Its amazing! But I'm not just talking about romantic love. I love the love I have for my family, my friends, Mariah and Mike, my puppy, my co workers, those who have taught me something, those who set an example, the stranger who does the littlest thing for me but ends up making my whole day, cute little old couples who are still so in love with one another, how Bay and Jack adore each other and love playing with each other. Love is incredible. Its selfless. Its giving. It is unconditional. It has the ability to change people in the most astounding ways. I am so grateful to have it and to see it in my life daily. And I love you :)

Love,
Kxoxo

Days # 18, 19, and 20

Day 18: Picture of the cast ofyour favorite show
I don't really watch TV but when I do I LOVE Food Network Challenge, especially the ones that have to do with cakes!




Day 19: A picture of someone you miss
Miss Emily Rachelle aka E. Yeeeeeah having your BFE move 2 hours away is the pits- I promise. I miss you. Like so freaking much that I can't think about it or I'll cry and die. I love you like a fat kid loves cake (almost like that kid on Matilda that has to eat that huge cake, but MORE).




Day 20: A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
So pretty much I want to travel through all of Europe, but for some reason pretty much unknown to myself Italy just has this allure to it. It seems so romantic and beautiful. I would just really like to go there right now. And Ireland and Scotland...

Day #17: Your Favorite Song

ok, this is a hard one. I love a lot of music but my 'go to favorite' is Let It Be. Sometimes I'll be listening to my iPod and I'll hear another song and be like, "OH! maybe this is my favorite song" but i never remember what those songs are, it's Let It Be that always sticks with me. I like it because its very comforting. It lets you know that everything will be alright. Just let things be; reminds me of this quote: "Staying present keeps us in the moment, which is where life is. Life does not exist in future predictions or past grievances; all we have for sure is right here and right now. Every moment teaches us something, and if we are busily trying to change or control something we miss the grace intended for us."
I think that is Kathy Fresnan. I just love this. I tend to overanalyze, so it helps me to think of this and just whoooosh! relax :) anyways. Ladies and gentlemen

Let It Be:

When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....


My favorite: And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light that shines on me, shine until tomorrow, let it be.
It'll always get better; this I have learned.

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #16: Someone you would want to switch lives with for a day and why

Hmmmm, I don't have anyone specific but I would want to switch lives with a boy. You guys are just really different in many different ways and I think it would be interesting. Also, someone who I don't like or get annoyed with easily i.e. Dad and this one family member I'm not gonna name. It would help me to be more understanding and patient with them, after walking a mile in their shoes (punny?).

Love,
Kxoxo

Day #15: A picture of something you want to do before you die!

Yep, before I die I would skydive. It's not like I'm planning a trip anytime soon, but if I had the cash and someone was like "dude, lets go" I'd go!

Love,
Kxoxo

Yikes!

Day #10: a picture of someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

I'm not even gonna speculate on this one. Its weird.

Day #11: Your celebrity crush

Christian Bale. I love how your bottom teeth are crooked and make you talk that certain way. Love, Kesley

Day #12: A picture of something you love

dance.

Day #13: A picture of something you hate

Sharks. Seriously. They scare me maybe more than anything.

Day #14: A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

My mama and sister

Love,

Kxoxo

Days 4-

#4: A habit that you wish you didn't have

Hmmmm, taking naps when I'm bored. I am not one of those people who clock their 8 hours and can't sleep a minute more. I could literally sleep ALL DAY. I can sleep and sleep and sleep. And I like it A LOT. It's not always a good thing.

#5 A picture of somewhere you've been to

Road trip to Vegas and Cali with E (my very first time visiting the beach!)

#6 A picture that shows your true self

I'm always having my friends and family take weird pics of me in public places. Good thing they aren't shy people.

#7 A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you

I have blogged about them before, but, I'm doing it again. They are a daily inspiration to me. Meet them and you'll agree. Everyone does.

#8 A picture that makes you laugh

So my birthday party was a little hectic. We had a bunch of dogs over and friends and family. Well, we were all trying to keep things in order, when I go to find Jackson. He's sitting at the table by himself just helping himself to my huge chocolate birthday cake. He's freaking adorable, I love him.

#9 A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Ok, I feel like I've posted a bazillion pictures, and I'm exhausted and not in the mood to deal with Blogger's retarded picture posting crap (and there are already pics of these people on the blog). Mariah, E, Kels. You all know, you helped me through thick and thin. I love you. 'Nuff said.

Love,

Kxoxo

30 Days of December!

Ok, so yes i blog stalk lol its whatev, and its people i love dearly! So i was checkin out Miss Ashley's blog and she got this idea from her friend, and i got the idea from her! 30 days of different posts (which is good cuz i've been googling post ideas er...) so here it is: actually you know what?! NO! i'm not gonna give you the list, you'll just have to be surprised everyday. And somehow I'll catch up on these last 10 days. Maybe two posts for the first ten days? IDK we'll see.

Day #1: A recent photo of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

1: I am 1/4 Mexican

2: I have never broken a bone

3: I am freakishly double jointed in my arms/elbows

4: I love listening to my iPod and singing loud while I get ready (just ask my family)

5: I am sincerely trying to stop swearing like a sailor

6: I don't believe in divorce

7: I also am sometimes swayed away from my Psych major by a Political Science desire

8: I love Marilyn Monroe. Not because she was a sex icon or had all the fellas drooling over her. But because almost everyone she came in contact with had wonderful things to say about her (she was a genuine, sweet person), she came from a horrible childhood and rose so high, she loved and adored children, and she was insecure and broken just like everyone else. She was real.

9: I brush my teeth in the shower

10: My first concert was Collective Soul

11: My first date was with Mister Chazzy awh!

12: When I was in early elementary I thought Kesley was a boy name and that I had a boy voice. I was very distraught lol

13: I love my hair. Some girls cry when they cut their hair, I would cry if I had to dye my hair a different color

14: I am really sensitive to caffeine. Ex: I can get hyper from some Mt. Dew, really hyper from Excedrin, people know that you do NOT give me caffeine or anything like unto it cuz i go nuts, one time a took one of those 5 HR energy shots and it gave me the shakes- not good!

15: Although I have been in active in the past and what have you, the church is becoming an ever present and central part of my life. And it makes me truly happy :)

Day #2: A really good memory

Awh. I miss Tyler Jeremy Jensen so so so so very much. My good memory is just all of the hilariously fun times we (me and E, yes we are a we) had with them (Ty, Cade, Andy, Mike, Jeff). Me driving Ty's new clutch horribly, Jr. Prom with Ty, Christmas Dance with Andy, Fourth of July at Sugarhouse, Motorcycle trio (E/Ty, Me/Jeff, Aud/Cade), Woodstock motorcycle duo and sidewalk chalk watching (E/Ty, Me/Cade), Third of July Dees run/car accident (not a good memory), E's family reunion up in PC, Hot Springs. Ohhhh I just love them all so much. We had an awesome senior year, and continue since Cade and Jeff and Mike are home now! We're waiting on ya Ty!

Day #3 A pic of you and your craziest friend

Yep, Kels, we're freaking weird. Thats really the only way I can put it haha but I wouldn't have it any other way. I love yooooou!

Love,

Kxoxo

10 things i think are weird/don't understand

1: Mustaches. I'm sorry but, I just think they're gross (except for my uncle dave, he's really the only one I've known that can pull it off). I don't understand the purpose of having one. I absolutely hate when guys have their mustache march or may or whatever (cuz most guys just end up with gross prickly mexi-staches), just ugh! I don't like them, I don't appreciate them, I don't want them, I don't want a guy with one. And I'm talking about mustaches not goatees or other facial hair. I actually like a man with a bit of scruff- thats hot.

2: Mean people. Those people who intentionally do things to hurt another, or do things with complete disregard to how their actions will eventually effect everyone around them. Now, I admit I have done both out of anger or ignorance, most people have, but most people try to correct or apologize. Then there are the people who don't, and I just literally cannot express how I completely and utterly DO NOT UNDERSTAND them. It makes me sad, thinking about someone who truly does not care for anyone but themselves- it must be a lonely, sad, world :(

3: The whole Pepsi or Coke thing. Personally, they're like the same to me. Maybe it's because I don't really prefer either, I rather have water lol but sheesh people just take what you can get. They're both carbonated and loaded with sugar and calories and can get rid of the acid build up that accumulates on your car battery.

4: Gross PDA. Okay people. I don't give a $%!&#$%@#!$ if you're "in love" aka can't keep your gross hands off of each other, but save it for somewhere where I am NOT. I mean hold hands, a quick peck, sit on the lap for a bit (appropriately), arm around each other- thats cool, "awh what a cute happy couple". But like kissing your girlfriends neck grossly and obsessively while we wait in line at Costa Vida (yeah that really happened) is disgusting and makes you look like white trash that can't keep your hormones in check, resulting in a knocked up lady for a girlfriend.

5: Lindsay Lohan. Like, seriously WTF?! Why do people care so much? She's just a normal person, who happened to grow up wealthy with a few movie deals, got into trouble and now she's on the cover/web page of every freaking thing! The judges always seem to be giving her extra chances and she keeps getting into trouble all over again. For goodness sake let the poor girl have some privacy and figure out her troubles! Her problems are what make her successful and that is just moronic and stupid and freaking annoying.

6: Jersey Shore. I know I'm gonna get a lot of crap for this, but, seriously! I just don't get it. I've watched a few episodes and all it seemed like was a bunch of tanning and hairspray obessed young adults getting into trouble. Who knows, maybe if I watched it more I'd like it. Maybe Elise, Same, Nate, Kenne, or Guts could show me the way. But eh, I'm not too worried about this one.
7: Tanning. While I'm on the subject of tan people. Lol, I don't mean people who go every once in a while in the winter to keep up a healthy glow, or whatever. I'm talking about the people who are obsessed with looking like an orange (and yes it can happen without ever getting a spray tan). Maybe, its because I have fair skin and can't tan for the life of me. And yes if I could I would like 'healthy glow'. But its now proven to cause skin cancer people, and almost every girl I bring that point up to, doesn't care. I promise you'll care when you're 40 or 50 and facing Melanoma. It'll be then that you realize that tanning wasn't worth dying. Yeah, I know I'm being super serious, but as a redhead I CAN'T tan. I burn. My redhead family counterparts have all gotten skin cancer. From not putting sunscreen on to drive! You're dark skin is a protectant against skin cancer, value that, don't push its limits!

8: People who don't get mad at other drivers. Lol! Oh man, all my friends tease me about my road rage, and yeah I know its bad. So all I can say is that I don't understand how you guys stay so calm at all of those other drivers haha

9: Zac Efron. Once again, I will be getting A LOT of crap for this one too haha. Yes, he is attractive. Yes, he sings pretty good. So what? Seriously, So Freaking What? I find a lot of other celebrities much more attractive, whom I don't have to remember dancing around in basketball shorts. Such as Christian Bale, Ryan Reynolds, Brad Pitt, Johnny Depp, Heath Ledger. So much more sophisticated if you ask me lol.

10: Black shoes with white socks. Haha! Kels taught me this one a long time ago: if you wear black shoes, you wear black socks. Now, of course I don't always follow this rule. But nothing cracks me up like seeing a grown man in a nice suit and shoes, then BAM!, white socks. It just ruins the whole outfit, cuz all I can look at are your freaking socks. So maybe its more of a white socks with nice dressy shoes and suit?

Well thats about it lol hope I didn't offend anyone too terribly and I apologize if I did :)

Love,

Kxoxo

Christmas Time Devotional (Fa La La La La)

Friday, Kenne, M Dub, and I went to see Harry Potter and OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS BODACIOUS it was so good. Now, I'm no E Kofford ;) but this seriously rocked my socks off, I can't wait for the next one! Then we went to play with Guts (who has an awesome blog by the way, www.girlwhowearsredglasses.blogspot.com check it out!) and I fell asleep on the couch of course lol

Saturday I was awoken by the cutest freaking yellow lab puppy named Raja (pronounced like Ray-uh) and Kels and Madi SONE. Kels made the most delectible french toast ever and I just had such a fun time with them (I act like a total dork, and Kels just thinks I'm hilarious which just makes us both have a grand old time and Madi thinks we're nuts lol) Then I got to vist Holly Dave Jack Bay and Marley and I just LOVE spending my time with them, they are the cutest sweetest kids (and family) ever, I love them to pieces.

And then my very good friend Cadence (you may know him as Cade) took me to the Christmas Devotional at the conference center last night (thank you Cade!). It was awesome and just what I needed. We waited on standby in temple square for about an hour, then these nice friendly people gave us their extra tickets (we kept commenting on just how nice everyone was there- we had like 50 people come to us and ask if we needed help finding our seats). The devotional was really good, good persepectives, but the music was my favorite (the choir and the orchestra together was so beautiful!), then we looked at the lights, and checked out the North visitors center and watch the Joseph Smith movie (which I'd never seen).

So all in all I'd say it was a good weekend :)

Love,

Kxoxo

adventitious... fortuitous... desultory... random

OK random post.
Things that makes me Happy!

Harry Potter.

Yeah maybe it sounds kinda dorky but oh well. And I'm talking about the movies AND the books. They really are just like my go to comfort movie, or nothing new to read book. Almost like comfort food :) Nice and familiar. Thanks from this girl Ms. Rowling.

School

Ok, I know this may be a little weird, but I although school can be hard and time consuming, the satisfaction and motivation I get from learning and working toward a goal makes me happy, and I achieve that through going to school!

Dance.

Of course. I've missed it so much! And dancing to my own choreography in the living room is not cutting it lol so I'm super excited for spring semester to get here cuz I'm taking a jazz class yay!

CUTE PICTUREs! Oh my goodness, I just love all of these. Some are soooo cute, some are funny, some are beautiful, some are inspiring, some are funny. Enjoy :)

Joshy!

My cousin. Pretty much like my brother. He's awesome! We have some pretty awesome fun times together. We laugh, eat In N Out, play poker, we're going to see Narnia for his Bday! And he'll always take pics of me when I ask him to (usually looking like a total nerd in a public place lol) Love you Josh :)

My FRIENDS!

E

Kels

Kenne

Guts

Nate

Holly

Dave

Josie

M Dubb

Elise

Sam

Ty

Cade

Jeff

Megan

Shel

Jamesy

Bradshaw

Big D

T

Marky

Lily

Kenz

I can honestly say that each of you have made a positive impact on my life and love all of your guts! Thanks guys :)

Mike and Mariah :)

Oh how I love LOVE and how I love my little sister even more! So put the two together and its awesome xoxo And Mike is such an amazing man, I could not have asked for a more wonderful husband for Mariah. Just seeing them together and their absolute love, commitment, respect, and adoration to each other is beautiful. They are a huge example to me, and who I go to for everything and anything.

Athena!

No matter what kind of a mood I'm in she always makes me smile and laugh, and if it really does seem like the end of the world she'll cuddle up with me and lick away my tears until I feel better :)

Jackson and Bay (and Marlee)

Oh boy these kids are my little love bugs. I LOVE playing with, reading to, watching movies with, listening to!, watching, bathing, chasing, laughing with, teaching, feeding, tickling these kids! Bay has The Most adorable laugh, she is independent but cuddling; such a little diva lol and she loves her big brother :) Jackson is such a ham haha he is always saying "Kesley watch this!" and he absolutely loves puppies and whenever Athena gives him a kiss he laughs and says, "Athena don't eat me!" They can be little stinkers but they light up my day when I get to spend any amount of time with them!

And of course this isn't EVERYTHING that makes me happy, my family does, funny jokes do, awesome socks or underwear does, hugs do as well lol

Love,

Kxoxo