oh man, well i don't even know, i guess i'm just having a stupid day. don't you hate it when you have those dreams that just completely f up everything in your life- like they make you second guess everything- yeah well thats the kind of dreams i've had this whole week and they suck hard core. they freak me out and make me think that everything is going to start falling apart at the seams and that maybe i'm wrong about everything i've been doing and that if i keep going that i'll f up everything! what the hell! i HATE dreams now so thanks a whole lot dreams because you suck! you suck like one of those fish that's only purpose in life is to clean the houses of other fish! but soon i will talk about my dream specifically in detail with some one and they will reassure me that everything will be ok and that its just a dream and that it means nothing. BUT the part that i hate is that i believe that dreams are a manifestation of your sub conscience that you've been suppressing- these thoughts or feelings or whatever have now finally manifested themselves. but what if i'm wrong or better yet its that: i really do worry that i will make a mistake that will drastically alter my life and ruin it. maybe i'm afraid of change even though we're always told that change is good. the thing is though that i don't want my life to change, i'm happy with how my life is right now and that is what is important... that i'm happy now. so thank you for listening to my ridiculous rant.